wat a day

Alot of times we have been misunderstood. Then we grit our teeth and accept the way people look at us. We may mean well, but it would mean otherwise to the other parties.

Today was so crap. Planning shopping to buy heels, then coincidentally broke my heels (I thought I have walked 12km in office). My PC died and seems not going to relive in near future. Went town and it was freaking packed. Took a $17 cab ride home where it is not even midnight.

Planted a surprise sometime back. Was excited myself. The day came and I was anxious. Even before the surprise arrived, I eventually felt happy imaging if I were the one to receive the same surprise.

The plan was slightly ruined because as usual, I was the blur queen. Gotten some details wrong. Already knowing the surprise had somehow failed, I was actually still pretty happy thinking I can make someone happy. And thank you Ron, for not giving up, had not for you, I couldnt have completed the plan...

A click on my mobile to my sms inbox, suddenly on the busy streets of Orchard, there seemed extreme silence. That lasted few seconds before I could react.

I thought to myself, "Oh, is that the only thing you can think of I could do? Can I never be nice to someone with just the motive of making people happy?"

I realised, there wasnt at all happiness that I have created, probably not even for seconds. I was hoping to receive a call, out of appreciation, but I didnt because I know I failed to create a smile.

There was nothing. Almost Silence.

All of a sudden I felt so redundant. That made me realised, each and everyday, there are people around making us happy, but we never bothered to say "thank you", and most of the time, we overlooked the fact how much people sacrifice their time for us.. We took things for granted.

And someone anonymous said to me when I said I did that just because I wanted to bring some joy, "you are so sweet".. I let out a smile.

Life is a balance. And it is always ironic.

And thanks Mel for the frog.

With that, I sprang back to life again, bought expensive chocolates for my colleagues, yeah, to continue spreading the joy. Heh^^ I love Christmas.. I really do.

I really want to thank everyone who brought joy to my life... That includes my family.... =)