Time flies and the "can can"

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"can"
"can can"
"CAN"
"happy?"
"you all happy then can lo"
"happier now?"
"hahahahahaha"

Ya. I said out that deadly word. And I said it like.... more than once. *shake head*
I'm beginning to feel the weight of "can". Gosh.

I never knew it could be this hard to just attend a BBQ session. I have always love BBQ. But this time it's different. It should be more fun, since it is going to be held at a fish farm, but on the contrast, this is soooo tensed.

Hownowbrowncow???

Yes, I gotten over the issue, in fact I shouldnt get so worked out since its already the THIRD time he flared at me for no concrete justifications. But once bitten, twice shy. So what if I turn up? I would not have the freedom to speak. Any joke misunderstood is a war. So what I dont turn up? BBQ still goes on.

Shrugs. Let me worry for this coming theory and practical tests first. All others can wait.

And best of all, I will be the last to join again IF im going. That is a nightmare. I am going to disrupt their plannings and whatsoever again?? Urgh. Then why should the rest insist I turn up? I know everyone's intention (thanks..) but who understands my position? In fact, this "bbqATfishfarm" idea was from me. I am now being invited to a gathering where I was the one to come up the idea with.

Probably no one knows it hurts pretty much when you have the good intentions but backfired. Then filled your head with all question marks. Well...

*breatheeee...*

Time really flies.. While I packed my book shelf, I happened to see HOTSTUFF of issue 40. That was like 1.5yrs ago? And I flipped till...... Yeah. I am on the page. I miss the days. I do. I miss him, too.

And this clip is the compilation of the photoshoots over the 3 years. I only took part in one. :)
Happy viewing.

I will be back.