I do not want to lose my cool

If the guilt didn't kick in, it just meant, not enough.

After this weekend, everything will change. Though I cannot be sure how many times was I being lied upon, but ignorance is bliss. So, probably no point to find out.

Not only, if I am of no difference in comparison, I'd rather not be further insulted and move on. Looking back, memories are too fresh to be ignored, but, looking forward, I already know the damage will be happening.

And to describe me as a TRAP, it hurts me deeply, left me with only disappointment. Simply because I am sincere. So if this is the way I am being seen, I can only shake my head and take a deeeep breath.

I do not want to lose my cool.

I did not regret giving the support and standing by. I closed my eyes and said to myself, "it is okay".