The teary day

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Besides the appreciation and delight from the gifts from a few more people from the office, including my 3.5years boss (plus an expensive gift from Babe), it was rather a sad day.
I do not know if there is anyone else who part with their job would feel as sad as me. And the idea of farewell dinner is definitely not very welcomed by me. I ordered Pizza for my colleagues in noon in appreciation for the support they had given me during my tenure with this company, but I seriously didnt have the courage to join them when the pizza arrived. I didnt even have a piece. That was sooooo unlike me, I'm usually the one who would go for three pieces whenever someone ordered.

Parting with my boss is the hardest. I am definitely missing the times we shared in our own private room with directors' chairs and gossiping plus sharing of numerous secrets. Personal and business secrets. She was the one who guided me through my first job in my life. The things she shared and taught are undoubtedly priceless. She shaped me into someone who is independent at work. She gave me chances to learn as much as possible and trusted me like her own daughter. She was always understanding and generous. Much as her temper was very ridiculous at times, but she always apologise. She took time to listen to my woes and always tries to address the problems. We never hid anything from each other.

When she stood at my desk for the last time after a long chat in our 'private room', I didnt have the courage to look at her, I know I would definitely cry and I bid her goodbye in a cheerful way without looking into her eyes like as if i didnt care... But it is only because, I really cant bear to.

But I really didnt want to regret, somehow, after she left my desk, I really miss her, she was only 20metres away from me then... Upon seeing her departure from the office, I grabbed my bag and ran down the stairs after her.. Holding back my tears, I stood in front of her car, I bowed and thanked her from the bottom of my heart for the guidance and opportunities she had given me all these while.

It was more to a friendship than a employment relationship. She have always trusted my opinions and never doubted my work abilities. She showered me with gifts and tried all means to make me stay. It wasnt a sudden decision to leave but it was a hard choice still.

Deep down I know, she could be the best boss I ever could have in my entire life. No doubt I will still meet good bosses, I know, but probably never one as good as her.

I didnt tear till she sms me (after we parted) she almost tear earlier in the office, I finally broke down in the train on way to town. From Jurong, I teared to Somerset. I couldnt get it off my mind... The tears fell uncontrollably and it didnt seem to able to stop. Even the time at this moment I'm blogging, I'm crying at a even worse rate.

I miss her jokes. I miss her secrets. I miss her strong perfume smell. I miss the way she tries to tease me. I miss the way she tries to please me.

I miss her concern for me. Someone who nags at me diving even much more than my parents did. Even the moment I am leaving, she still wants me to know she cares.

I never regretted serving her. It was my pleasure and I know I am very fortunate.

您对我的好，对我的教导，

我深深记在心里。

我非常感恩。

我有今天，是您给的机会。

我真的，真的，谢谢您。。。