Farewell Finale

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Another "Farewell".. Another teary night.

This time was worse, I literally cried in front of some of them.

It was my boss' brother's (my big boss lar) daughter's wedding at Ritz Carlton on last Sunday. But most of them joked saying it is my farewell party because the entire Khongguan came down. Not only families, staff but also suppliers, customers plus my China associates!

Few pictures were taken with my boss, but her usual self would be wanting to be discreet so I cannot bring myself to load those pics so.... I live in the shadow of my job till today. She was excited when my Sales Manager called her asking her to join us, using my name. My boss heard my name and rushed out from the ballroom.

When she saw me, she went, must take picture tonight ar! I brightened up. And hence, photos taken.

She introduced me to the China Associates whom I spoke on the phone with for the past 3.5years frequently. They said they are surprised to see such a young girl and my boss went patting my head softly and said, "Ya, she is still a young girl.... and she is leaving me". My heart skipped a beat, abit sad.

Then my boss gave me a hug.

When the dinner ended, the salesmen and some plus my new girl and myself, opened one table with Beer and Wine filled to the brim of the glasses and my Sales Manager goes again, calling my boss using my name to join us.

I stood up and toast to all of them, making a short speech and they were teasing how my boss will miss me then my tears started flowing without warning. My boss eventually offered me tissue. Aiya. Embrarrassing to cry in front of my new girl also lor. Ha. Then my boss gave me few hugs plus more pats on my head.

I toasted few times and my boss eventually stopped my salesmen in making me drink more. She was telling them "stop" when they poured the wine into my glass... Really like my godma eh?

At the lobby, I couldnt bear keep seeing her, when will we ever part? The feeling was pretty horrible knowing I have to see each meet up as the last one, then the feelings just keep coming, fear of partings and feelings of missing. Final hug was given at the main entrance. I thanked her many times as well...

One sms from her 1 hour after we parted, saying she will miss me. I was having supper with ah beng and I calmed myself. Ah beng says he is disappointed in me in crying over a boss. But I was really sad, so I didnt share with him nor turn to him for comfort since he already feel I was a disappointment. But I felt I have always shown my true feelings. I dont want to regret for not letting my tears flow earlier on.

So ends the night.
Ends my relationship with Khongguan.

I will always remember this night.