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Yup, I dont have time at all to blog my Layang trip at all.

I have been feeling sooo stressful ever since I decided to quit my job. Really. Suddenly all things come together waiting for me to handle, which are toooo difficult for my new girl to even understand, let alone help.

First time ever since my working life, I could overslept for the entire week. Even when I had straight late nights continuously, I never will oversleep for the entire week! I got so totally burnt out during working office hours, skipping lunch, no time to even munch on my bread that I packed from home.

The moment I got home, I immediately feel so lethargic...

Just as I thought there is good karma around, I found out there wasnt such a thing call GOOD karma? I hope someone can prove me wrong..


I was sooo patient in teaching my new girl. The kind of patience was the kind that rarely flows in my blood for this twenty over years. I thought if I wasnt patient, my 'teachers' would not be patient with me as well... (bad karma)


I was wrong... I just came back home feeling a little upset. I wasnt exactly scolded for being stupid, but I know the meaning is similar. I could see clearly my teacher was relutant in teaching me, and harshly asked what have I been doing with the programs at home. I only received the programs a week before my Layang trip and I havent had enough time to spend at home, let alone with my PC. It has been hurtful to know my teacher was disappointed with me for learning slow and incompetent. Fine. I quit.


But given my character, I decided to stay up for tonight and try on the programs till I discover something new to me, if not, I'm not going to sleep. I dont believe I'm that dumb. So what I know I'm an IT idiot? I dont need anybody to remind me. Crap.


If there is no chances of learning, I move on to places where I can learn better.


Remember I never liked my boyfriend to be a diver? Yea.. I heard some news that further upset me. He probably is going to be a diver. Ok, everything is to a stop now.


Now I hit back to my programs. No improvement, no sleep.


I hate the life I'm leading now.
Hope the wind blows away whatever crapshiet I've been facing these few days.