I think I was agitated, triggered my rage. The fact I felt deeply pierced, why even when knowing doing some things would hurt me but still purposely do it anyway??
To think I was using the terms "us", "our", "we".. "WE go buy OUR crabs together for OUR tank".. Do WE seriously exist in the first place?
I took time off and spoke to TJ this afternoon. This is what he said I'm going through, the Kübler-Ross model...::
Denial: The initial stage: "It can't be happening."
Anger: "Why ME? It's not fair!" (either referring to God, oneself, or anybody perceived, rightly or wrongly, as "responsible")
Bargaining: "Just let me live to see my child(ren) graduate."
Depression: "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"
Acceptance: "It's going to be OK."
He figured I was at Denial... Haha!
Thank You, TJ. Really.
Your funny conversation brightened me up. And probably your same thoughts (as mine) also assured me, that I'm not over-sensitive.
And have decided to blog less...
I think my blog is creating trouble.
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