this is sooooo embarrassing

F.

Oh gawd....... This is gonna freak me out...
So embarrassing.... Oh my~

While I was drooling over 小S, I initiated to know him via Email just minutes ago.... It was so freaking ultimate cliche sentence I said when a guy wants to know a girl.
That is why this is freaking annoying embarrassing!!!!! I'm a girl and he's a guy!

Last evening was worse, my heart pumped like it never pumped before. Best of all, I never had this feeling for the past 6 months throughout my singlehood! Last night, I stammer when I talk. I burst in cold sweat. My hands, legs and speech cannot coordinate themselves making me like a fool in front of him. I looked into his eyes and starts melting. My ability in speech was so haywired that when he listened, he couldnt figure what was I saying and so he got confused when issuing the receipt. So embarrassing to make him re-write another receipt!!
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I just want to dig hole and hide now la!!
Especially after I dropped him an email with the worst pickup line..
Okway, I dont want any reply liao....

And its toooo embarrassing if I were to see him again... So, no please.