It's my fault again.

Staring onto my laptop, stoned for awhile. Wondering where should I start from actually.

Okay. The 'Goodie Bag' that I have prepared yesterday morning for my bff tomorrow has became a waste. We ain't meeting afterall. To think I was excited in giving a surprise when we meet.

In fact, probably not in near future we are going to meet. Similar to last year.

Deep sigh.

If I'm not good enough as a friend that she has to call me "childish" right in my face, then I should probably stop bothering her. *shrugs* It pretty hurts to hear my bff telling me that talking to me further will make her disappointed and that telling me off to stop acting innocent. These words became the breaking point that we afterall, do not know each other at all. That totally broke my heart.

I have no idea what my bff sees me as anymore.

Well, nothing else to be said. I got smacked even before I did anything, and not like I have any intention to do anything. The only choice now is to unpack the 'goodie bag' that I have packed specially for my bff, no one else in the world has. I was probably not good enough to be a friend.

Deep sigh.