I shouldnt have joined..

F.

...Yes, I shouldnt have..

I thought my presence could be fun to them, but..

I cried in office. Now dying to dry my tears so I can continue to work. zzz. I felt so farking unwelcomed all of a sudden.

Now I feel like slapping myself for REALLY being buttside itchy wanna join in the fun.
Slap slap!!!

Suddenly got accused of so many things.. I didnt bother whether the mails were to me or to the rest as well, I just broke down in tears... Like tapwater neh!! Faints. So many till I cant catch and just toppled off. Head landing.

I guess my good intentions to keep everyone excited in the anticipation just backfired. I guess I could no longer keep up to suggest BBQ or gatherings for them, with thought of building up even closer rapport before going. I think I failed big time. LOSER.

To think I was excited. Started dreaming to go Vince's farm since Roy and I have never been there. Then thought BBQ might be more convenient. I think I am excited and not... WE are excited. Ha. It must have been a joke. *audience laugh*

I didnt know I created so much troubles. I think my goodwill actions seemed BIG TIME redundance.

Was pretty disappointed that this email that I started turned out this way, and of course, with some who took my intentions the negative ways and came darting me. I remembered how excited I was yesterday keep emphasizing to Fred during sailing, "Gosh, less than 3 months only leh!" and jumped with joy.

So dear Roy, want to die, we must die together. LOL. Meaning, dont want to die right? So we stay close and come back alive. We must behave ourselves. Ok ok, I treat you ice cream rewarding you for accompany me to be the Extras. I'm sorry. :"(

Right now, no more funny jokes. And no more redundant efforts. I think thats the best I can do :) I already felt bad enough to have annoyed everyone... Sigh

On a brighter note, Hey!! Kukus!!! China man didnt drool at me hor!!! Create stories. @#%*(!&*& Stil dare to spread. On a second thought, drool about me can, but cannot just drool for my rashie only!! Its me who made the rashie looks good hor! Hehe *giggles*

Thanks Esther for laughing at me crying in office and TRYING so hard to create jokes that isnt funny at all. LOL. Stupid egg joke. I will remember!